- Well, that was long.
- Yah!, I think the last time we talked was like ..
- more than one year ago!
- Wow .. that really was so long man
- yup!
- So, how are things and so ?
- They’re quite fine thank God .. what about you?
- I’m cool too and things are going well.
- Good .. I really miss those days.
- Me too! it was fun, though sometimes it was sad.
- Whatever it was, it’s good memories and that’s enough to be missed.
- You’re right about that, actually, many things happened this year.
- I know .. that’s why I can’t hold it, come on .. gimme some stories.
- They’re many, let’s start by my Memoirs section.
- Yah, you wrote one blogisode and you decided to suddenly die 
- Funny , well, I wrote the first one .. but not yet published.
- Is it about you mother ?
– No, when I thought it a little, I decided at the end to group my chronic desires in one thing.
- How’s that ?
- Well, I always wanted to write a story, actually, I made a fair amount of trials that all ended up in nothingness. So, I’ll write my memoirs as a story, or following the way a narrator tells a story generally.
- Were you going to write it in a different way ?
- Nope, I was going to write separate things, whatever comes up from my memories, I write it down. That’s why in my first blogisode, I listed some topics to write about. But, now, I’ll write the whole time line from the beginning.
- That’s interesting .. but it would depend on how detailed you will choose to be ..
- I think I’ll be quite detailed, you know, when I was remembering my life back there in the past, I discovered that I have extremely many things to write about!
- Please, get rid of your over-reacting nature .. take things easy.
- BTW!, I lately have out weighted that bad habit with little soberness, and I think I’m better now, thanks to you , so don’t worry, I’ll try to be practical and produce a nice thing, I promise 
- Hopefully! .. it was a bad habit you had, and believe me, readers will be bored from extravagance.
- I know .. but really, I think things are going well isA. So, as I just told you, I’ll tell my story from the very beginning .. so I can document the full picture. At the same time, I’ll accomplish my second desire of writing generally.
- Good really.
- I found that I have something to write, rather than my other trials, where I couldn’t find much information .. I think I lacked preparation, for scenarios, characters and so.
- It’s a large project, and I read once that writers produce complete profiles about their main characters in the story before writing the story itself.
- Yes!, and that’s already done in my Memoirs, because simply, the main characters are my own family .. so things are way easier. And I think it’s a good start.
- I hope you make a good thing at the end, but tell me, ibhog, why will you write about your memories.
- The same question I asked myself when I first thought about it, and till now, I don’t have that solid reason.
- Mmm, I believe that having a good motive will make you pursue till the end, rather than being hanged in the middle, as usual.
- You know, my motives are always short on me, their effect never lasted the long I wish for them always to be. I was told by someone I knew once, that I’m a kind of starter than a finisher, the thing that itches me and I try my best always to reach that so-called finish stage that I terribly long for!
- A good motive is enjoying yourself with the production you’ll end up seeing infront of your eyes, I mean, think about it, after isA you finish your memoirs, isn’t it enough that you’ll see your life infront of your eyes, and by then you’ll have the choice to remember all your beautiful memories when you want to.
- Of course that will be beautiful, but not enough for me to pursue, and I’m afraid of slacking away again.
- Then, my advice to you is to not continue your writing without settling down on your big motive behind writing. And, don’t fool yourself, you’ll have to come up with a good reason, one that will make you presume if one day you felt lazy or anything.
- Mmmm, I’m blank! .. God!
- How about publishing it ?
- Sorry ?!
- Yes .. publishing your memoirs in a book.
- That’s hilarious ..
- You were thinking about that .. please don’t play with me.
- What makes you think I thought about publishing it.
- So you really did .. look .. I’m not saying it’s something bad, on the contrary, it’s one hell of a strong motive.
- Whatever, it’s not guaranteed, weather I wished for it be published or not.
- Again!, you jump straight to the end.
- What do you mean ?!
- I mean you’re now thinking about publishing itself, not about being it a good motive. You know that not much of the great writers were gnostic of the fact that their works were actually going to be published! One of the very basic reasons behind failing yourself is thinking about the end too much .. and in a wrong way.
- I feel that you have a point.
- Heck .. of course I have, there’s a difference between an end and a motive.
- Things are getting philosophical ..
- Not more than you always end up being ..
- OK, let’s assume that my motive now is that one far day, those words might be published, will that be enough for me to set myself tight till the end ?!
- Apparently, it’s useless if you don’t have the desire initially to have such a motive, I mean, that if you have some other things that you wish for.
- Like what ?
- Mmm .. like, say, writing your memoirs for someone to read it, some explicit person you wish they read your words.
- It’s normal that I be happy when readers read my words, but not someone in specific. Look, I’ll try to tell you something that may form a good motive.
- Please do!
- Well, through all the years of my life I have the feeling that someone always must know how I see things from my inside, scene by scene in life, I believe, has a very special reflection in myself that must be known by others, and the fact that things just pass by and go away hurts me so much. That’s honestly one of the very basic reasons I wanted to write in the first place.
- You’re starting to make sense at last ..
- I can’t reason about it much, but I deem my judgment to be very special all the time, and believe me, it’s not arrogance, but my views end up right somehow in many ways. However, I don’t find the time to explain or clear out my position.
- Why do you consider it so special, I mean, everyone have this somehow, everyone needs more time, most the time!, to explain themselves.
- Well, another thing, the thoughts themselves, I feel I approach life very differently, I can’t express more .. sorry.
- Go on …
- Sometimes, I think that if I had all the vocabulary of all the languages, then only then, I’ll be able to express what I truly feel. Words, many moments, betray me and paint the wrong picture. Rarely, had I managed to articulate it exactly. I think you notice that from our talk and my writings generally.
- Well, quite sometimes .. but not to that extent.
- I always feel handicapped, even when I talk to someone, I rarely let out some very special and distinguished meanings I wish for them to know I have.
- Mmmm ..
- I think that’s why I even decided to write about my whole story from the very beginning, so I give the chance to whoever reads to know the background well and accordingly judge my thoughts and feelings …
- ibhog, I think I found the good motive for you ..
- shoot!
- You! .. you will be your own motive. It’s very similar to what you just said, write so you’re pleased with what you’re presenting, to feel consent about your words finally. Write and write and write .. till you feel that you delivered the longed for meaning and feelings you wished to paint.
- I thought about the same thing, the concept generally of thinking about oneself pleasing and so ..
- Though many think it’s selfish .. but sometimes it’s very healthy and is always the starting point for a positive change in one’s life.
- Yah ..
- So, get going man .. here is the motive .. it’s your own freakin’ self .. but be careful of things getting so bad.
- I think I know what you mean ..
- Good! ..
- Okay .. many thanks really .. I’ll try my best isA .. to write about myself and the ones I love and care for. But .. there is some other issue ..
- What issue ?!
- The mood .. the same old enemy of producing anything generally.
- Let me be frank about that, it’s apparent that your study and field generally ruined a part of your mind, being addicted to the screen somehow .. the thing that ended up in being overly moody.
- Hey hey .. __
- I mean that when you sit to write .. you easily find many distractions .. am I right ?
- Yes! .. it’s normal to check my three mails, my students page, my facebook page, my blog comments, my __
- See .. I bet that you have a headache and leave the screen ..
- Well, yes especially when I repeat the same scenario many times a day.
- Why don’t you write on paper ?
- A waste of time, especially with my terrible handwriting.
- Well, if that’s the case, then try to focus only on writing when you open you machine, I mean no mails, no webby thing .. nothing!
- I think I’ll try that .. actually .. I was thinking about making a small boycott for a week from opening the internet ever. I need to rest my head.
- I totally recommend something like that ..
- Maybe after my final exams then ..
- Being it mentioned .. how’s your exams and study ?
- I have 4 mid-terms the next week
- How cold, ibhog ?!
- Thanks .. you can’t imagine how am I waiting to get rid of the freaking college.
- I can observe that from the tone ..
- I have crazy ideas .. as always about the last day at college and so.
- I’m always ears
- Well, I’m thinking about making a public student runaway!
- Ahahahahaaa … sorry ?!
To be continued,
